Thursday, July 31, 2008

The First Month!

I can hardly believe the miracle taking place inside me right now! I'm just so blown away by how God is knitting our baby together. He truly is an awesome God. We feel so blessed that God has chosen us to be the parents of this new life. As this past week has gone by our thoughts have become more and more enveloped by the awing truth that we have a responsibility to raise this child for Christ to serve Him. We feel so overwhelmed by God's faith in entrusting us this responsibility and we have prayed every day that we will be tools in His hands to shape this little life for His glory.

We keep talking about how sometimes it doesn't feel real, but then there is no masking the symptoms or those incredible positive lines on the tests (yes, I took more than one :)). But all the achiness, feeling tired, and the wide range of other symptoms is so worth it! Maybe a bit premature, but I totally had to walk through the baby section at the store, you know, just to look! We were talking about when it would really sink in and I think it is a gradual thing as you just grow in love with your child.

We have not told anyone our blessing yet, we wanted to get through Matt's BAR. But now we are planning on telling the grandparents and sisters and brother-in laws to be this next weekend. We cannot wait, but we want to do this in person! I'm so excited to have the family's support and prayers for a healthy pregnancy and baby!
We love you baby, and look forward to watching you grow!

Saturday, July 26, 2008

The Positive Test!

I could hardly believe my eyes! In a matter of a few short seconds my heart pounded, my eyes were tearing, I was breathless, weightless, smiling, and speechless. I was looking at the bright blue line on the test giving full evidence of our baby's existance! There in the bathroom floor I dropped to my knees praising God for His creation and gift of life. Then I ran upstairs to to tell the new daddy!

We'll have to go back a few weeks. Matt's been studying for the BAR and I've been working this summer to support us, but all I could think about was a baby. I realized I was letting that become a distraction and a source of discontentment. Just 2 weeks before that amazing positive I gave my desire over to God with a heart focused on His will. I was content to be His child even if we never had one of our own. And even though Matt was very preoccupied with legal study, his mind and heart were focused on growing our family too. God's way is perfect!

Little baby, we love you already! We pray you grow in wisdom and stature and favor with God and men. We give you to the One who gave us you and we cannot wait to meet you.

Comming Soon!

Comming Soon to a Clark near you . . .